Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Life: Alittle bit of this; Alittle bit of that: Unchallenging Profession
Life: Alittle bit of this; Alittle bit of that: Unchallenging Profession: "What is a person to do when they have a beautiful family to take care, yet they are ultimately miserable with their current job? That's me i..."
Unchallenging Profession
What is a person to do when they have a beautiful family to take care, yet they are ultimately miserable with their current job? That's me in a nut shell. I've held the same position for the last six years and needless to say I am utterly bored, unchallenged, and over all I am completely miserable. In our current economic times I know I should be happy that I even have a job to complain about, but there is so much drama involved in my current field it eventually takes it's toll. Not to mention working third shift for the last 3 years has really taken it's toll on me physically and mentally!
I am in school so that I can one day leave this line of work and do what I really love! I suppose I would be happier if I worked for an agency who actually cared about the individuals it employs, but unfortunately I am not that lucky. I haven't received a raise in more than two years, yet I have scored perfectly on my evaluations. We've been told our money is frozen due to budget cuts and I would be more inclined to believe this if my superiors weren't riding around town in a Lexus or a Benz and living in million dollar homes or close enough to that price range at least.
I am currently working toward my B/S degree in psychology and plan to attend Grad school. If only I could speed up the process! At this point, however, I am a glorified punching bag/maid and I have had enough.
For the record I work in the field of developmental disabilities and work with an individual who would rather headbutt you straight in the face than look at you. Not to mention they would also slap, kick, bite, punch, scratch, grab, and piss on you (literally). I used to love my job, but after all of these years and getting absolutely nowhere: career wise and financially, I am simply over it. I know deep down that I deserve something better, something that challenges the mind. With the pay, the required duties, and the unnecessary drama that comes with it, I am no longer interested in putting my best effort into the work I do. My work ethic means alot to mean, yet I have to force myself to give it my all these days and I don't have it in me to do so much longer. Which leaves me with the problem: I have searched everywhere locally and otherwise for something else and there's nothing that fits my needs both mentally and finacially. Perhaps, I am too picky, but I think I am simply tired of settling for 'a job'. I want a career and I am taking the steps to get there, but in the mean time it would be nice to have one foot in the door.
My current job leaves me feeling mentally and emotionally drained, physically exhausted, and discontented. I am a much better person when I am away from that place.
So what can I do?
I can take control of my life!
I can focus on what exactly it is I want and do my best to find it!
I can make things happen for me because things won't happen if things aren't changed!
Yes it all sounds so wonderful doesn't it? Until reality sets in and I look into the eyes of my 3 precious children and know they depend on me for their needs and for their care. For them I will endure the misery, but in all honesty how can I possibly be the best mother I can be for them when I am my most miserable self because of my job?
What then I can I do to fix things and attain a balance within myself, my life, and my sanity?
I am in school so that I can one day leave this line of work and do what I really love! I suppose I would be happier if I worked for an agency who actually cared about the individuals it employs, but unfortunately I am not that lucky. I haven't received a raise in more than two years, yet I have scored perfectly on my evaluations. We've been told our money is frozen due to budget cuts and I would be more inclined to believe this if my superiors weren't riding around town in a Lexus or a Benz and living in million dollar homes or close enough to that price range at least.
I am currently working toward my B/S degree in psychology and plan to attend Grad school. If only I could speed up the process! At this point, however, I am a glorified punching bag/maid and I have had enough.
For the record I work in the field of developmental disabilities and work with an individual who would rather headbutt you straight in the face than look at you. Not to mention they would also slap, kick, bite, punch, scratch, grab, and piss on you (literally). I used to love my job, but after all of these years and getting absolutely nowhere: career wise and financially, I am simply over it. I know deep down that I deserve something better, something that challenges the mind. With the pay, the required duties, and the unnecessary drama that comes with it, I am no longer interested in putting my best effort into the work I do. My work ethic means alot to mean, yet I have to force myself to give it my all these days and I don't have it in me to do so much longer. Which leaves me with the problem: I have searched everywhere locally and otherwise for something else and there's nothing that fits my needs both mentally and finacially. Perhaps, I am too picky, but I think I am simply tired of settling for 'a job'. I want a career and I am taking the steps to get there, but in the mean time it would be nice to have one foot in the door.
My current job leaves me feeling mentally and emotionally drained, physically exhausted, and discontented. I am a much better person when I am away from that place.
So what can I do?
I can take control of my life!
I can focus on what exactly it is I want and do my best to find it!
I can make things happen for me because things won't happen if things aren't changed!
Yes it all sounds so wonderful doesn't it? Until reality sets in and I look into the eyes of my 3 precious children and know they depend on me for their needs and for their care. For them I will endure the misery, but in all honesty how can I possibly be the best mother I can be for them when I am my most miserable self because of my job?
What then I can I do to fix things and attain a balance within myself, my life, and my sanity?
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